Monday, February 05, 2007 Y 8:40 PM
Whatever you want here.
Stop me from falling ):
i'm feeling all so emo again.): .. i don't know why .. Just woke up and watched the 7pm show .. "Let it shine" Channel 8 .. And i rarely cried for just watching shows .. It's not myye hobby ever since he
left me .. So i was sitting here , like half dead .. with puffy eyes .. )': .. because i cried before going to sleep .. and the feeling is so .. terrible , worse then sick i tell ya .. So i was sitting on the chair , watching the show , where this part came in .. myye tears starts to roll down myye cheek .. )': .. Where this couple quarrelled .. and their relationship is on the rock .. I don't know why myye heart can almost feel the pain?Most probably i'm a lil crazy today , after quarrelling with YENLING .. i don't know?Things just haven't been right today .. Fattah cried in school , i cried in school .. Teacher nagged at us .. They're stupid .. is what you all O.P.S.S teacher wanna tell us?is that what you wanna tell us .. you can tell them , but definitely not tell me .. please don't let me return to the past me .. i hate it to the core ..
Back to the point# .. And i was like :Hey girl , it's just a show .. do you have to cry??" i don't know .. ): ..It's so sad to see people around me starts to get weaker and weaker .. from the friend i understand the most turn out to be , i don't know her at all .. could you imagine that?i actually yelled at her .. And i seriously don't know why,is that me?i'm always telling people around me .. i will never yell at her .. cause shes' myye precious , but i actually did that infront of everyone .. Is that me?Or ..?I really don't know .. Maybe i am me , but i just don't know who am i actually ..?Isn't that abit weird .. i don't know .. It's abit weird , today whatever i talk .. i never seems to get to a particular point .. And it's so SO f-ed up .. I never been so weird like today , it's not totally depressed .. But it's i-don't-know .. Everything it's i don't know .. And i DON'T KNOW WHY!?
Secondly , i felt so empty .. )': .. i've a blog hopper today .. And i've read some of the blog .. sweetheart , dear dear , darling and lao gong .. well . you know what i mean right .. it's so unpleasant for me to look at those thing this few days .. But i've been reading those things .. i'm starting to take out the dairy ,i've shared with him in the past .. )': and it's so HURTING .. but rest assure i've already accepted the fact hes' leaving .. or should i say?He left?But .. The hole in myye heart , it's forever there .. [ Once broken , it's broken. No matter how you mend it .. It forever broken ] Well , thats how i'm feeling now )': .. Some of you may thing .. What hell of a rubbish is this?But i'm not sure .. Thats myye current feeling , and i think i won't be paying attention tomorrow i think .. Things in myye mind .. It's starting to bother me in the heart .. ONCE AGAIN .. i'm returning back to ME .. F it .. How i wished , nothing of this happened .. How i wished you never left ): .. How i wish i never met you .. How i wished .. How i wished .. I could just be me ):
Thirdly .. Is reality that difficult to accept?My precious dad .. Is falling , and we all tries hard to reach him .. But he refuse it anyway .. He always say .. we don't know him .. Or we are too young to know .. I've gone through this dad , have you forgotten?How am i able to go through it .. i got myye friends .. and most importantly i know i have you .. But why can't you spare a thought for us .. YOUR FRIENDS .. ?Why can't you think it this way:"You have us (: " There nothing of such things is in your mind i guess .. And i'm trying hard to tell you .. what over is over .. Don't think about it .. You know you've done ur best .. Then why think about it?She left you .. and SHE left you too .. But that doesn't mean we ALL are gonna leave you .. Lovers' ain't forever , friends are forever .. How i wished you knew we are there for you all along .. How i wished you could just stop whatever you are thinking and spent time with us having fun , like what teenagers should do .. And not going for tattoo and working like you are now .. hais .. i wished i could tell you straight to ur face like how i talked to other people .. but i respect you ALOT ALOT! and i don't wanna you to listen to some words you don't feel like listening to .. so i didn't ):
And lastly .. Maybe i'm wrong?To even think about you?Or care for you?Or continue loving you anyway .. i'm tired .. i just wanna be dead for just one day (:
Someone please help me?kill me?curse me?hate me .. please
Boy,我愛你. ):
i'm feeling all so emo again.): .. i don't know why .. Just woke up and watched the 7pm show .. "Let it shine" Channel 8 .. And i rarely cried for just watching shows .. It's not myye hobby ever since he
left me .. So i was sitting here , like half dead .. with puffy eyes .. )': .. because i cried before going to sleep .. and the feeling is so .. terrible , worse then sick i tell ya .. So i was sitting on the chair , watching the show , where this part came in .. myye tears starts to roll down myye cheek .. )': .. Where this couple quarrelled .. and their relationship is on the rock .. I don't know why myye heart can almost feel the pain?Most probably i'm a lil crazy today , after quarrelling with YENLING .. i don't know?Things just haven't been right today .. Fattah cried in school , i cried in school .. Teacher nagged at us .. They're stupid .. is what you all O.P.S.S teacher wanna tell us?is that what you wanna tell us .. you can tell them , but definitely not tell me .. please don't let me return to the past me .. i hate it to the core ..
Back to the point# .. And i was like :Hey girl , it's just a show .. do you have to cry??" i don't know .. ): ..It's so sad to see people around me starts to get weaker and weaker .. from the friend i understand the most turn out to be , i don't know her at all .. could you imagine that?i actually yelled at her .. And i seriously don't know why,is that me?i'm always telling people around me .. i will never yell at her .. cause shes' myye precious , but i actually did that infront of everyone .. Is that me?Or ..?I really don't know .. Maybe i am me , but i just don't know who am i actually ..?Isn't that abit weird .. i don't know .. It's abit weird , today whatever i talk .. i never seems to get to a particular point .. And it's so SO f-ed up .. I never been so weird like today , it's not totally depressed .. But it's i-don't-know .. Everything it's i don't know .. And i DON'T KNOW WHY!?
Secondly , i felt so empty .. )': .. i've a blog hopper today .. And i've read some of the blog .. sweetheart , dear dear , darling and lao gong .. well . you know what i mean right .. it's so unpleasant for me to look at those thing this few days .. But i've been reading those things .. i'm starting to take out the dairy ,i've shared with him in the past .. )': and it's so HURTING .. but rest assure i've already accepted the fact hes' leaving .. or should i say?He left?But .. The hole in myye heart , it's forever there .. [ Once broken , it's broken. No matter how you mend it .. It forever broken ] Well , thats how i'm feeling now )': .. Some of you may thing .. What hell of a rubbish is this?But i'm not sure .. Thats myye current feeling , and i think i won't be paying attention tomorrow i think .. Things in myye mind .. It's starting to bother me in the heart .. ONCE AGAIN .. i'm returning back to ME .. F it .. How i wished , nothing of this happened .. How i wished you never left ): .. How i wish i never met you .. How i wished .. How i wished .. I could just be me ):
Thirdly .. Is reality that difficult to accept?My precious dad .. Is falling , and we all tries hard to reach him .. But he refuse it anyway .. He always say .. we don't know him .. Or we are too young to know .. I've gone through this dad , have you forgotten?How am i able to go through it .. i got myye friends .. and most importantly i know i have you .. But why can't you spare a thought for us .. YOUR FRIENDS .. ?Why can't you think it this way:"You have us (: " There nothing of such things is in your mind i guess .. And i'm trying hard to tell you .. what over is over .. Don't think about it .. You know you've done ur best .. Then why think about it?She left you .. and SHE left you too .. But that doesn't mean we ALL are gonna leave you .. Lovers' ain't forever , friends are forever .. How i wished you knew we are there for you all along .. How i wished you could just stop whatever you are thinking and spent time with us having fun , like what teenagers should do .. And not going for tattoo and working like you are now .. hais .. i wished i could tell you straight to ur face like how i talked to other people .. but i respect you ALOT ALOT! and i don't wanna you to listen to some words you don't feel like listening to .. so i didn't ):
And lastly .. Maybe i'm wrong?To even think about you?Or care for you?Or continue loving you anyway .. i'm tired .. i just wanna be dead for just one day (:
Someone please help me?kill me?curse me?hate me .. please
Boy,我愛你. ):
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